At times I dread my now and envy where I've been..

Keira's Singing: Tammin Sursok - Whatever Will Be
The weather is now: Warm Sunshine 26.6c

First off, this song Whatever Will Be by Tammin Sursok is really good. Secondly, I've got nothing else to say. Life is a routine now that gives me nothing but a sense of emptiness. I need more, much more, at least in this life. Perhaps things would be more interesting when classes starts, maybe it will be worse. The thought about doing something that I had no prior intention or interests in doing is dreadful. Telling myself that this may be the start of something interesting and that I am able to put to good use is all I can do to anaesthetise myself.

Maybe I need to getaway from this place. No, I need to get away from this place. At least for a while. I don't know. I might never return. Runaway from the world perhaps? What a bold statement. I need a change in my life, I need the feeling of taking charge, I need the sense of control over my life.

My heart feels like the death of a star, slowly self-consuming and self-absorbing, before it all collapses, turning into a black hole, pulling everything around it into an eternal darkness.

Oh look, and I said I've got nothing to say earlier. What a bragger.